[He murmurs it while the lapping tide of regrets coils in his gut like nausea. For a moment or two he watches the ceiling, then closes his eyes while he tries to push it down.
There's so much he's keeping from her. So much that hasn't been said for reasons that hold no weight when he truly thinks about them. All things can be broached in conversation. She deserves to know that he might one day come back here damaged in a way that may mean she no longer wants him. That he'll be different. That time will pass without her and that so much will happen.
He winces, pushing against the urge to sit up and try to move away from the weight pressing on his chest.]
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Date: 2018-04-21 10:42 pm (UTC)[He murmurs it while the lapping tide of regrets coils in his gut like nausea. For a moment or two he watches the ceiling, then closes his eyes while he tries to push it down.
There's so much he's keeping from her. So much that hasn't been said for reasons that hold no weight when he truly thinks about them. All things can be broached in conversation. She deserves to know that he might one day come back here damaged in a way that may mean she no longer wants him. That he'll be different. That time will pass without her and that so much will happen.
He winces, pushing against the urge to sit up and try to move away from the weight pressing on his chest.]
Something's happened.